once u turn back. u 'll think about it again~

.. just started to write again after long hiatus~ ha, not that long la. Anyway. as usual, today i wake up and put cloth to washing machines and let it go sunshine. sleep and wake up. not much to do. as usual and forget to write finance notes. sigh~

oo.. bout the topic.

once u turn back. u'll think about it again~

 i'm not kind of person whom love to think bad about others but sometimes we just can't forget what we do it past time which exactly not a good deed *i would say* and yes, sometimes looking back at my high school times i do regret. To tell ya.. okay. there's one very good looking boy in my class and he's one of a kind that makes ur heart melts; like the way i felt. haha~ and 'many' adorable girls *including me* we fond by him. making competition to get through his attention goes hard. Indeed. there's a mix girl in same class *he like her* and a year later they were a couple. I .. dislike her. but not straight forward about it and i guess she knows it well. she's my another friend best friend and usually *i think laa* my best best friend often chooses her instead of me. so.. yes. i dislike her and our relationship can't go well because of me. maybe it was too obvious to her. Feeling bad lately! when i saw her in FB etc.. just regret it. she such a beautiful mix girls that never ever hurt me and yet i treat her that way~ huu T_____T

ha. ad satu kisah lain ni pulak. tringat kt kwn ni. Dia seorang gadis yang kalau dipandang terlalu cantik sehinggakan kecantikan dia tu sukar dilupakanlah kiranya. Kalau tengok dia bukan takat cemburu lagi.. tapi terus rasa macam nampak bidadarilah rasanya *berangan* ha, orangnya pandai dan sangat.. lembut dan tegas pada masa yang =.. kami baik2 je. tp, ad 1 insiden ni yg buat nilai tu jadi macam bursa saham time ekonomi jatuh aka susut. ad 1 masa ni.. ak nk check laa profile dia kt fb. cerita dia. so, search laa nama dia. the result is. dia remove ak! atas alasan apa? tidak diketahui. sejak tu, langsung tak pernah dtg rmh dia. sbb *terasa hati* yg dia x suka. so, buat ap dtg. hmm.. apapun ak dah maafkan dia. cuma hati ni masih terasa. tapi apakan daya. kalau org dah x suka nak buat apa lah kann..?

tetiba pulak teringat pasal kisah sorg kwn nie lg. lately dia tulis kt fb yg dia dah di hired bekerja kt kaw sekitar Kuala Lumpur. Alhamdulillah~ rzeki dia. bgs laa. cpt kerja.. cepat kahwin. calon pun dah ada. UPU dia d-.. so agk kesian juga. tp, lain kali dia bo cuba kan? orgnya bijak.. tentu ad pluang~ anyway wlaupun ak x tlis kt FB dia congratulations .. tp deep inside in my herat i always did. good job man! :D

kisah last but not least. sejak ak dipercikkan o minyak masak ahad lepas.. semuany cam tak kena. *ini cerita lain, tpesong pulak* kembali kpd storyline.. mula2 ak ingt nk get flow through wind je *skandal jawa x berapa jd* tp smkin lama nk lupa semakin byk pula yg aku rsa suka tentang dia~ semua *maklumat yg ak stalker* uu~ seramnya! daripada dia mencerminkan dia sbg 'lelaki idaman ak' ad ke status mcm tu? bila renung-renungkan balik cam ad hikmahnya. insyaAllah kalau ad rzeki tu adalah~ kan? kpd yg mmbc entri ni. sila doakan laa ya.. :D amin V.____.V

selamat berpuasa. salam ramadhan. good luck. study smart dan.. smile always with love to Allah SWT. see u ni next entri ok!