THE LOVE STORIES..reality and fantasy.

I remember the moment of my friend tell the others that she now in love with this man. The glows of her face tells that she was a lucky girl in this world. She has found her Mr. Right. But, several days later she told me that they've broke up. She tells me that he was cheating on her. He just take an advantage upon her. Just using her. To be truth, i was shocked! I'm a type of 'soul mate' lover thinker. So, the first time i knew that this is the reality, i changed my mind. There are no such things. The world would never had Jack. The world just have a same person as Rose. There are not such loyal man. I ended up giving up and take single but not available as my tag line.

As the time goes by, i knew one story. A story about a very fine man. He was the man of everything a girl ever wanted. A very high and charming personality. Charismatic, romantic, bachelor , a very responsible person, good brother and son. He fell in love again for a girl at the same class. *we were in a same class though*. They were a couple. She was a fine lady. Her sweet smile and voice would make man fall. A grace woman, a friend of mine. The lovey dovey couple ended up their relationship 2 month later. I remember that time, because we had our mathematics test on that day. Other friend of mine told us that they've just broke up. This fact make me think a lot. Normally, a woman would fall for a man with sweet talks. But this girl just can't accept those sweet and romantic words given to her. Well, i just can't understand it. Why she would accept him if she knows that she couldn't accept his action..? Maybe, she just don't realize it yet? Or she had to find a reason to let this relationship go? She has her own reason, and i respect her. She stands on her words. Till now.

Here's a story of a girl who always adore this man since her premier school. What i can say about this man is he's a youngest brother in his family members.  Fair and good looking man. With a several meet, they were a couple. She's done almost everything for him *except sex etc things*. And she was really in love for him. One day, he find it hard to continue with their relationship, so he just 'bye' her. Make her hearts breaks. Without any explanations. They just broke. 4 years later, he called her to tell how sorry he was for what he done before. He said, maybe it was what he's done to her that make other did a same thing to him. There it goes! What goes around goes around. Serve him right! Can't he said sorry to her right away he break their relationship? Why he had to wait till he had the same situation right on his face? Selfish! Coward!

Another story i learn is about a man who's been coupled with his girl for almost 8 years. Well, i guess more than that! He's a very handsome looking man. But, he use this credit to flirt with other. The other parties were his girl best friend. Imagine, a man spokes closely to you. So close that you could hear his breath flowing. To me, this is an unacceptable act! *Please, if you want to flirt in front of me..do think wisely!* Exactly. His attitude change my point of view for him. He just one of man type. I hope i'll never find one like him hereafter. The stay close in a picture which i placed it on my FB. Well, that female girl said that that man wouldn't mind just like his girl. But the fact is, he did mind! And seriously mad at me when i took that picture in my FB. He said..

"Don't mess up with me. I and ZZZZ has problem now. I'll have a difficult time to excessive her then. huh...remove it fast. huhuhuhu... if *that other girl* asks, just tell her that you don't want to let the picture in your FB"

His girl best friend for what i know is respected person. She's very spontaneous and outspoken too. Well, i just can't find in my heart that she'll treat her friend like that way some day. But, i guess i don't like that man. Precisely.

And a new story i learn a couple of days before opened my eyes on childhood friend. Starting a conversation with me just to have my other girl friends phone. It means that he had no intention to speaks to me at all. No wonder he just act like he didn't want to speaks with me at all. Huh! Another friend that make my day negatively cloud. Rainy day i guessed. I didn't envy his action to find a way to contact this girl but, you have to do it in a proper way. Yes, i am a spontaneous person and always takes 'never mind'. But, friendship is about what you build and based upon trusts. It makes me hurt to find out 5 minutes later that he just want that girl number. Yes, it hurts my pride. Even though i've been rejected or ignored, this is worsen enough! Sorry, but i can't accept his action. Maybe i would love to be gentlemen..but i guessed, all of that kind of man had been lost to other girl..huuuuuuuuuuuuu~

Sometimes, i really wanted to know what they felt for if they've met again their lover. Ex-girlfriend or ex-boyfriend. A person who used to know everything about you and become a complete stranger after you've broke with him/her. Maybe it will form a grudge? or you just think to let it go with the thought that you'll find a better person compare to him/her later? Love is something unpredictable and unimaginable. You could just dream a fantasy and sweet and long lasting romantic relationship. The reality lies on how you colour it. Love can be concluded like a painting or a canvas. Sometimes, you imagine that blank canvas would be a very prestigious painting day later. That blank canvas would be paint with a very admirable act, faces and colours. But, the truth is you can't paint it as you please. You may had a new ideas while you're paintings.  That'll change the results of your paints. You might like it or hated it after worked for it. You wouldn't throw it away because it stands for all days you worked for. That painting would remain as a memory. Looking at it means you look at yourself.
I just can't imagine a fairy tale anymore. Because love is what you give and take. You can't hopes for a perfect one to be yours. You'll find it hard to living with him/her. Then, you'll always find yourself horrible. It is what you didn't think of. Because love and life is full of surprises... :P

Biawak confirm binatang yg pling ak benci!

Kenyataannya; biawak muncul juara binatang yang paling dibenci..hahaha:P

Sebenarnya, bukan aku ada dendam dengan keturunan biawak or something like that, tapi mengenangkan kekejaman biawak *karnivor..iya ke??* membuatkan aku sakit hati.

Dimulakan cerita, aku nie tinggal dekat kawasan kampung or subbandar laa kiranya. Kiranya membela ayam itik dan angsa merupakan aktiviti biasa perkampungan *iya ke?* Seperti biasa di suatu petang yang sunyi tengah aku syok-syok nak menyapu rumah tetibe mak ayam menjerit melolong!!
"Ketoook...ketook"dengan cukup menyakitkan hati. Demi menyedapkan hati yang panas, aku keluar ler tengok. Alangkah terkejut badaknya aku apabila terlihat seekor alligator *biawak aje* dengan mulutnya penuh dengan bulu ibu ayam tersebut. Ibu ayam menjerit. Anak-anaknya berlindung di sebalik pokok berbentuk pisang *kitaorang sekeluarga panggil pokok ram2*..si biawak tersebut ngan selamba badaknya tengok jer aku cam 'apa yang berlaku' kononnya. Macam dia tak bersalah sungguh ler.

Dengan bengang, aku mengejarnya dengan penyapu lidi. Geram sungguh! Maka aku mengejar biawak sampai ke belakang rumah. Sampai tercungap-cungap tau! *bangga*.. lalu menjerit..
"Jaga kau kalau aku jumpa lagi. Aku bunuh kau! b%$#@h punya biawak!" agak kuat jugak jeritan tersebut. Jangan-jangan jiran sebelah menyebelah pun dengar agaknya..

Setelah tu, aku masuk rumah dan basuh kaki..ibu ayam tadi pun semakin bertenang. Kesian dia, habis bulu badan. Agaknya kesejukan ler dia tidow malam nier..~~
xpew, ada anak2 dia..

Kes biawak makan telur, makan anak yam memang selalu terjadi. Kadangkala rasa macam nak tembak2 aje biawak nie kasi die hard punya. Ishh..nak kata kesian pun; baik tak payahlah!

Dulu, pernah sekali aku nampak biawak selamba aje tangkap anak ayam pakai mulut dia. Bila aku usir, dia selamba aje bawak anak ayam warna kuning tu pegi. Bila teringatkan balik hal tu, aku jadi sedih dan sayu. Kesian anak ayam tu. Kalau tak sekarang dah besar dah..*besar pulak buat najis mukhalazoh merata2*.. anak ayam tu merenung aku..rupa dia iras2 ming2 wonderpets, cuma lebih besar cket matanya.. Masa kejadian tu, bulan ramadhan. Kurang pahala aku sebab sumpah seranah biawak punya pasal..T_T

Ada sekali tu pulak, tetiba aje ayam kat umah aku terketok-ketok *bunyi ayam*.. bila aku tengok, rupa2nya biawak tengah nak makan telur dia. Selamba jer. Nampaknyer biawak lebih hebat dari ayam. Sebab ayam cam terkesima bila biawak datang nak makan telur dia. Ayam cuma mampu berbising aje. Sama macam time dia nak bertelur.

Kesimpulannya- Ayam vs Biawak = Biawak menang
Biawak vs aku = aku menang ler kot hehe~~

Kepada bayi yang tidak berdosa;

Sebenarnya, sudah lama ingin aku tuliskan sesuatu mengenai berita yang mengejutkan, tetapi umpama trend masa kini. Pembuangan bayi yang langsung tidak berdosa. Teliti pada wajah anak-anak kecil yang hanya mampu menangis dan memandang ibu dan ayahnya; meminta untuk tidak diperlakukan seperti sampah. Nyata sia-sia.

Terbaharu, kampung aku sendiri dikejutkan dengan penanaman bayi perempuan. Bayi ini ditanam di reban ayam milik salah seorang penduduk kampung. Ditemukan dalam keadaan yang menyedihkan, di tanam dibahagian kepala. Gamaknya si ibu berbuat demikian. Aku rasa sangat sedih sekali. Anak yang tadinya dilahirkan sihat sudah tidak bernyawa. Kurniaan dan anugerah tadi hilang sekelip mata. Macam kisah bodoh yang tamat begitu sahaja. Aku jadi sakit hati!

Si ibu yang dituduh membuang anaknya bukanlah insan yang asing padaku. Setahuku, dia seorang gadis yang baik dan sentiasa taat pada ibunya. Anak kedua bongsu daripada keluarga yang berpendapatan sederhana. Lebih mengejutkan padaku, dia bukanlah seorang yang berperangai sosial ataupun mengamalkan gaya hidup bebas. Namun, itu hanyalah sangkaanku. Dia telah mulai kuandaikan haiwan (tidak mungkin lebih teruk lagi) bertopengkan manusia. Mungkin kala itu, nafsu sudah menguasai akal fikiran dan dia hanyut dibuai gelora asmara sehingga rela menyerahkan tubuh genitnya pada kekasih hati tanpa memikirkan kesan perlakuan tersebut. Mungkin juga terdetak di fikiran bahawa sekali melakukannya; mana mungkin berjaya menghasilkan benih? Nyata kuasa TUHAN lebih Maha Agung. Pembalasan bagi mereka yang melakukan kesilapan. Sebenarnya, aku menulis bukan untuk menghukum. Tidak, aku bukan undang-undang yang menanti hukuman dilaksanakan kepada pesalah. Aku hanya berdiri atas keyakinanku. Keyakinan menulis perbuatan terkutuk yang perlu berakhir ini!

Kepada gadis-gadis yang telah mulai terjebak dengan perlakuan hina ini, aku pinta kalian merenungkan diri dan berfikir panjang. Bukan untuk sesiapa, tetapi diri sendiri. Diri sendiri yang penting dan harus difikirkan. Peliharalah kesucian diri dari titik-titik noda yang mencemarkan..

 moe!!~~

Jadi, penulisan ini untuk bayi yang tidak berdosa. Yang tidak pernah diminta untuk dilahirkan sebegini. Yang mempunyai hak untuk disayangi dan dicintai oleh manusia lainnya; terutama insan yang melahirkannya. Jangankan kerana nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga! Fikirkan kesilapan lalu sebagai akibat dan menerimanya sebagai salah satu takdirNya. Pengajaran! Jadikan kenyataan dan realiti kemudian hari lebih manis. Siapa tahu, mungkin satu hari nanti, anak-anak inilah yang membela nasib ibunya. Ibu yang membuat keputusan melahirkannya dan menjaganya meskipun sedar cabaran dunia yang menanti.

Salam ketabahan buat anda. Jangan diulangi peristiwa semalam! T_T

Kuih 5 pagi (5 a.m. Cookies)

Hari Raya Aidilfitri pada setiap merupakan hari raya yang cukup dinantikan oleh segenap manusia termasuklah aku. Tapi, raya Aidilfitri 2009 melakarkan memori yang paling ‘rumit’ sekali.

Setiap tahun, aku akan dipertanggungjawabkan membuat kuih raya *sejenis sahaja* biasanya Kuih Almond London yang menjadi pilihan. Tapi, tahun ni macam-macam kerenah nak siapkan kuih ni. Nak kata susah, tiap-tiap tahun dah buat. Entahlah agaknya aku yang lol lol sikit tahun nie.

Nak dipendekkan cerita, disebabkan akak kedua aku balik lambat *jumaat 18hb aku terpaksa buat kuih raya malam sabtu *entah kenapalah aku pilih malam sabtu. Malam raya pulak tu!* Tapi aku mulakan jugaklah kerja-kerja pembuatan tu jam 10 malam sebab ada saudara *orang jawa panggil Dayo* yang datang. Lagipun petang sabtu tu aku habiskan mengelap tingkap kaca x10 buah. Penat macam mana pun, aku terpaksa buat malam ni jugak sebab mak dah sindir-sindir dah. So, aku dah janji nak buat malam tu.

Pembuatan bermula dengan jayanya dan aku berjaya menyiapkan adunan biskut. Tapi, buat punya buat adunan macam tak jadik. Dengan selamba poyonya aku tanyakan pada master chef aku *akak kedua yg dah pakar buat kek & biskut

“Kak Na, apesal jadi macam ni?”soal aku bodoh.

“Eh, kau letak sukatan betul ke ni?”soal akak macam nak marah. Aku dah naik bulu tengkuk dah ni. Takut punya pasal.

“Dah betullah tu! 500gram kan?”soalku. Akak meminta aku menge‘check’ kembali. Bila di‘check’…sah! Mentega yang aku sangka 500gram tadi sebenarnya 250 gram. Masak! Nak tak nak aku kena betulkan balik adunan tu atau tidak adunan tersebut akan menjadi bahan terbuang. Nasib baik mentega masih mencukupi. Tapi, telur pulak tak cukup. Cuma ada sebiji telur, sedangkan aku perlukan 2 biji kuning telur. Aku kejutkan mak yang sedang lena diulit mimpi di ruang dapur *penat memasak sampai tertidur mak aku.

“Mak telur ayam masih ada lagi tak?”soalku. Maklumlah sekarang season ayam bertelur, so mesti ada telur ayam yang boleh aku gunakan.

“Kat bekas biru”suara emak *dipendekkan cerita* dalam keadaan mamai. Aku ke tempat yang dimaksudkan dan mengambil sebiji telur ayam yang nantinya akan menyelamatkan aku. Opss..maksud aku kuih Almond Londonku. Akhirnya, aku berjaya menyiapkan adunan dengan bantuan Yeossy, kakakku.Nasib baik. Tapi..aku kena siap baker kuih pulak. Keseorangan aku adun biskut menjadi bulatan sampai jam 5 pagi, tapi masih tak siap-siap. Bila terasa macam nak kejang aje. Aku rehatkan badan. Dan..akhirnya tertidur. Jam 5.30 pagi aku tersedar. Rasa Give Up dan aku berhenti sampai takat yang aku mampu seterusnya masuk ke dalam bilik. Tidur.

Pagi raya tu, menjajar aku buat kuih raya. Nasib baik Kak Jaie siapkan coklat untuk biskut dan tepat jam 9 pagi (*kalau tak silap aku) barulah kuih tersebut siap. Huh! Lega! Habis satu hari raya aku dengan cerita aku membuat kuih raya sampai jam 5 pagi, pastu tertidur dekat oven Huh!